Unknown

You feel alone
So many want to read your heart
But you have been written in a
Language unknown

There is someone
Among the stars, written as you
Refusing to surrender the
Measure of none

No one can say
Why your mind expands beyond the
Limits of the Universe
And all it's faith

Only you must
Carve out the poison on your flesh
To deflate your story and be
Something like us

You are alone
Even those like you will protest
Themselves and refuse to reveal
The inner groan

Because they know
Peace does not rest in the battle
To become uniquely you but
In being sold.

You are unread
Fighting in vain to reveal the
Language of your heart and soul to be
Raised from the dead

It will take more
And every ounce of sanity
Sacrificed to the cause of what
You can't ignore

There is no place
For restless hearts like yours to rest
Or lean upon a moment of
Another's strength

So carry on
Unread, alone, unsupported
Unknown, rejected, resented
Until you are gone.

I Wish I Were Special

I wish my qualities outweighed my weaknesses.
It would be nice if you stopped for a moment
Each time I passed you by and thought,
"That is something special."

I wish I could pull myself out of bed
Early in the morning and run for miles
And then stop and listen to the wind.
That would be something special.

I wish I could paint my dreams on the sky,
And then build a bridge to reach them
And bring them to where you could see
That I am something special.

I wish I could sing my songs to the world
And you would feel like I was singing just to you
And it made you smile because
I was something special.

I wish I could read your soul through your eyes
And see your heart through your words
And make you feel better
Cause I've got something special.

I wish you thought I was amazing
And would do anything for me
Because you knew the REAL me
And thought it something special

I wish I didn't want to feel special
And instead didn't care how special I was
Because then I would feel special
When you say I'm something special.

If one day you ever did.