Disappointing

I guess I'll never be
The person I want to see
Because every time
I try to do anything
I only end up being
Disappointing

Disappointing

I wish life would
Hand me a pretty box
A wooden door that knocks
That I can open up and see
What I am supposed to be
That would make it easy

But that's not the way it goes
At least not for those
Who never know
Which way to go
Or how to grow
Effortlessly

What I've always been it seems
Is what I'll always end up being
No matter how many times I try
I don't think I'll ever be
Someone that is anything
But disappointing

Disappointing

What I Want

Let me tell you what I want. I want
Wrinkles stretched across my face
From spending too much time
So much time
Laughing in the sun

Let me tell you what I want. I want

Water rings on my coffee table

Because a friend stopped by

Just to say Hi...

And forgot to use a coaster

Let me tell you what I want. I want

Chips and cracks in my windshield

From the hours we spent 

Traveling together

Exploring the world - together.

Let me tell you what I want. I want

A belly that's just a little too big

Because I had - babies

Three

Beautiful babies

Let me tell you what I want. I want
A messy house, a messy house
From too many days spent in bed
With our toes
Curled around each other

Let me tell you what I want. I want

People to call me crazy

Because I refuse to conform

To these rules

The silly rules of the world

Reality

Be who you are.
And be sure that who you are
Is something of which we approve.

Be true to yourself.
And be certain that your truth is
In alignment with our truth.

Be genuine; honest; sincere.
And take care that how you present yourself
Is what we want to accept you as.

Find your place in the world.
And be diligent in keeping your place
Within the boundaries we have set for you.

Find true meaning in life.
And compare your meaning with
Our definition of what life should be.

Find your niche.
And be clear that what you surround yourself
With must be valuable to us.

The world is at your fingertips.
And it is up to us to approve your dreams
Before allowing it into your grasp.