Trying to Be

It's hard to see the rainbow
through the safety of the window
It's hard to see the sunshine
through the shelter of the trees
It's harder still to see
what changes should be made now
And it's hard to see what changes
will never belong to me

The girl behind the wall felt so much safer
Than the girl that broke them down to let you in
Easy to feed the dog under the table
And easy to call the best of men dear friends

I want to keep on fighting
for everything I've fought for
But I want to fight for everything
you and I share today
It's hard to tell the difference
between the sparkle of each star
Except for where across
the sky they find their place

Let's build the walls again with stronger bricks now
To protect each other from everything that hurts
Because it's easy to destroy what has been broken
Easier still to ruin perfectly whitened shirts

It's scary walking blindly
into the novelty of freedom
For fear you've turned again
and made the same mistakes
Wherewith we learn it wasn't
things that ever were the problem
But it was me I couldn't leave
it is me that hasn't changed

Show me how to love what still needs mending
Show me how to mend what can't be loved
As it is easy to throw out paper planes that won't fly
Or even decide to throw away the one that does

It's hard to see the lamp under
the brightness of the sunlight
It's hard to see the waves
under the fullness of the sea.
And harder still to see
what changes should be made now
And to decide which of these changes
will never belong to me